Self-Abstractions
St. Mary's Project in Art Studio
Artist Statement: Fran Carbonell
Self-portraiture consistently informs the
world, in concrete rather than abstract terms, of an artist's
experience as the visual subject of her or his own work. Through
making self-portraits, I am entering into this dialogue with
other artists who are also engaged in self-portraiture. This
dialogue is not limited to artists, any viewer can partake by
viewing the work and relating to the self-discovery and processes
an artist goes through to convey meaning about him or herself.
While many view the self-portrait as a window into the mythologized
personalities of artists like Vincent van Gogh, as being eccentric
or mad, I believe this misconception to be too narrow of an interpretation.
There are as many different types of self-portraiture as there
are artists making them. Ideally speaking, through drawing myself
I wish to portray many different inner-states, or abstracts of
myself. Each portrait does not stand alone as a distinct and
complete representation. They function more effectively if viewed
together as an amalgam of what an ideal and true self-portrait
could potentially embody.
At the beginning of this body of work, I was not studying other
artist's self-portraiture. My influence began with Paula Rego
because I was interested in pastel as a fast way to bring color
to my work, and felt awed by her mastery of it. She is a contemporary
painter, focusing the subject matter of her recent work on representing
women in a fairytale framework. I wanted to draw myself as she
drew her models. I started very big, working with pastel on 4x8
sheets of plywood. Drawing three images of myself in each panel,
I referenced Rego's compositional structure and how she set her
figures within space.
In her Dancing Ostriches series from 1995, she drew eight
large pieces in pastel of figures of women dressed in black tutus
and pink ballet slippers. In one of the drawings, a single figure
fills up the entire picture plane in a confrontational and uncomfortable
way. The figure is perching on a black leather cushion with her
legs parallel to the bottom of the picture plane and her arms
looming over her head at the top as if they are coming right
out at the viewer. The application of the pastel is vigorous
and emphasizes the body of the figure as being fundamentally
strong. Rego's ballet dancers are not idealized female forms
as Edgar Degas presented them to be in the nineteenth century.
In my work from the end of last year, I was looking at Rego carefully
while working. In five large-scale pieces, my figures sit on
and crouch beneath a ledge. Similar to Rego's, my figures feel
pressed up against the picture plane forcing the boundary of
the image to exceed its natural dimensions. In addition, I attribute
the way I draw my body to her style of distorting certain parts
and putting less of an emphasis on others. The distortion in
my pieces tends to be in the lower half of the body emphasizing
the hips and thighs.
In part, I got this from Rego and from observing myself in the
mirror and focusing on the areas where I feel the most strength
but also vulnerability. Historically, many considered these parts
of the female figure to house strength for things once desirable
like fertility. This is no longer true in contemporary society
and culture, which is thin-obsessed. I am drawn to Rego for directly
challenging these ideals by depicting women in traditionally
romantic states, such as dancers or in repose, and redefining
this iconography by distorting their bodies and presenting them
as animal like. Another body of work she made in the same medium
and scale as the dancers was entitled Dog Women, stressing the
physicality and fierceness of her female figures, and again defying
the ideal.
In an effort to reduce the formula of drawing myself and to get
away from the dilemma of the body, I began to concentrate my
attention on the traditional self-portrait format of head and
shoulders. I discovered a great deal from that transition. I
found that I could focus much more on actual content and technique
without having to worry about just getting the ground covered
like in the larger work. Issues started arising in terms of composition
and what made it in the picture. The work made from this point
on is in pastel, charcoal and acrylic on paper. My figure generally
takes up most of the picture plane and varies from life-size
to larger. A commonality that carries through the work is the
visual formula of capturing a frozen moment, or abstract, of
myself through which I see an inner state coming through. Through
research, I first looked back to artists like, Rembrandt van
Rijn, Vincent van Gogh, and Gustave Courbet to see what they
were implementing in their self-portraiture.
Initially, what was coming out of my work was unclear, but I
continued with the idea that I was capturing different states
of being or abstracts of myself. Recently there was a traveling
exhibition of Rembrandt's self-portraits and I began researching
his work in this area. Rembrandt, working in the 17th century,
painted over seventy portraits of himself within a span of forty
years. Throughout these works, he sometimes assumed various mythic
or biblical roles and adopted costume in his paintings. I was
interested in the results he got from this in terms of what he
conveyed to his audience about himself.
In one particular piece, The Prodigal Son, Rembrandt paints himself
raising a glass of wine towards the viewer with a female figure
seated on his leg. The carelessness he conveys about his character
and the wantonness is palpable. I wanted to evoke the same intense
states of being within my work without having to adopt different
costumes or characters. Without drastically changing these elements
in my work, I had facial expression, composition, color, and
other pictorial elements left to convey to an audience the mood
I intended. Often times I am unaware of the state I am portraying
until after I have completed a piece and I can interpret it according
to these elements.
For example, in my piece Self-Portrait: Fever I worked under
a red light, which created a pink tone cast over my face, mimicking
a flushed look. After seeing the effect of this, I saw my head
leaned into the side of the picture plane, my mouth was slightly
open, and my eyes were startlingly wide. After I got some distance
from the work, with time, this analysis matured. I formulated
a title that aided in revealing my discovery more directly to
the audience. The reading is also dependent on the audience's
interpretation and whether or not they can somehow relate to
and accept the state the artist created. Ideally, I want the
audience to access sensations evoked from my drawings and to
react to the subtlety that comes through an image about what
it means to inhabit a body from within.
Naturally with my interest in self-portraiture, I turned to Vincent
van Gogh. He painted over forty in the last five years of his
life, from 1885 to 1890. Throughout my research, I became interested
in the self-searching that van Gogh maintained throughout his
entire life. This is evident through the records of his letters
to his brother and patron, Theo van Gogh. Mostly I find affinity
with his spiritual search for a higher purpose for living. He
devoted much of his life to studying for the priesthood, working
in poor mining communities in France, as well as working as an
apprentice to art dealers. He painted the last ten years of his
life and I see his work coming out of this spiritual search,
as do other theologians and historians (Edwards). I view each
self-portrait I make as a deeper spiritual questioning of who
and what I am. While not sharing van Gogh's mental state, I do
identify with his spiritual state, towards which I hope to develop
my own path. In drawing myself repeatedly, I am seeking a more
substantial understanding of what my humanness means in relation
to the world, both concrete and spiritual.
About his piece Self-Portrait for my Friend Paul Gaugin, he writes,
"I have aimed at the character of a simple bonze worshiping
the eternal Buddha" (Erpel, 60). I have similar motives
driving my self-portraiture. In my earlier work, the ledge I
spoke of is a metaphor for a spiritual plane that I find myself
both on and simultaneously falling off of, and that is why there
is always one figure that is lying on the floor in a desperate
state. Van Gogh also writes while in St. Remy the mental hospital,
"I am working like mad and feel a blind rage to work more
than ever. And I believe that this will contribute to my recovery"
(Erpel, 9). I view my self-portraiture in this vein; as a way
to heal the broken and negative regard, which I can hold for
myself, the uncertainty with which I can exist.
For more visual and less personal reasons I next began to look
at Gustave Courbet's self-portraiture. In historian Michael Fried's
book Courbet's Realism, he discusses what Courbet conveys through
composition and the use of hands in his self-portraits. In my
piece Self-Portrait: Essentials, I crop myself at the shoulders
but include my left hand at the lower left corner coming up with
my wrist bent. My intentions were to focus on the hand because
it holds importance for me as an artist. In the painting, I am
actually holding a small eraser. Through my reading on Courbet,
I felt an affinity with what Fried was saying about his hands.
He writes, "Courbet's drawing of his hand expresseshis conviction
of being one with his body, of inhabiting it from within"
(Fried, 73). This embodiedness in Courbet's self-portraits that
Fried emphasizes is what I intend to portray in my work. However,
he seems to be limiting it to a physical feeling of what it means
to inhabit a body, whereas I wish to include the emotional and
mental as well as physical states in my redefinition of what
it means to be self-embodied.
Fried suggests that Courbet's use of cropping in his later self-portraits,
like in The Man with the Leather Belt, creates the illusion that
the bottom half of the figure is coming out of the picture plane
and entering the space of the viewer. Therefore, the viewer reads
the top half of the figure, which is actually painted, as closer
to the picture plane creating a sense of proximity. This is also
evident in my work. My intentions are for a viewer to feel confronted
just as I am confronting myself in the mirror. This use of space
is also effective for my desire to depict internal states of
being, to mimic the scrutiny of emotional analysis.
In my recent piece Self-Portrait: Pledge, of head and shoulders,
my head faces left and my left hand rises from the bottom of
the picture, as if taking an oath. The tension of the space created
by the cropping does make for a directness and proximity that
is rather uncomfortable. In addition, the hand and arm come forward
from the head as though they are actually crossing over the picture
plane to the space of the viewer. The hand then acts as a barrier
between the viewer and the head and shoulders. This element was
not intentional at first but seems a logical progression in terms
of protecting myself from others seeing me. It reflects the discomfort
that arises when looking at myself so closely in the mirror and
attempts to refuse that the viewer achieve this closeness.
Recently in my research of other artists' self-portraiture, I
have found several women artists that I respect a great deal
and in many ways, I wish to emulate their path and grow towards
the precedents they have set. Before these most recent discoveries,
I searched through catalogues of women's self-portraiture rebelliously
discounting a great deal of it for its emphasis on "woman"
and its de-emphasis on a common human struggle.
However, my attitude was one of denial and closed-mindedness
because it is impossible for me to assert that my self-portraiture
has nothing to do with my experience as a woman. Through devoting
this year to self-portraiture, I feel more secure in the self-expression
that has emerged from this group of work. I am less concerned
with evading the fact that I am a woman engaged in exploring
the complexities of the self, of which I have only scratched
the surface. Every experience, especially visual, ties into my
gender, whether I am aware of it or not. However, the gender
issue is not the sole impetus driving my work.
The first of these artists is Käthe Kollwitz, a German artist
living and working in her homeland in the first half of the twentieth
century during both World Wars. Her self-portraiture acts like
bookends for her artistic career, done early and late, couching
a great deal of politically charged graphic work in between.
Particularly her black and white self-portraiture done later
on is very influential in terms of its visual presence and the
heaviness of her experience expressed through it. By the very
nature of the time in which she lived, Kollwitz' self-portraiture
reflects the struggle she endured including the loss of her only
son in WWI.
I recently completed works in black and white and I find it interesting
to witness the directness that this adds to my work in terms
of conveying emotion. Kollwitz was aware of the power that black
and white holds in terms of making strong statements and carried
this over into her self-portraits. A guttural seriousness and
thorough honesty that come out of my portraits in black and white,
which seem to be lacking in other color ones. This may be in
part due to the fact that I am not well versed in color, but
I am not going to abandon color altogether in my work. There
are some things that I can communicate in black and white more
effectively than in color. I believe that for me, as I see in
Kollwitz' self-portraits, the decision to use black and white
matches the gravity of depicting inner states of being. Color
can be superficial and attract a viewer without focusing as much
as black and white has to on subject matter, composition, and
contrast. Black and white work seems to exit our world and enter
a different reality or more specifically a spiritual realm.
To bring it back full circle to contemporary work, Susanna Coffey
uses her self-portraits to generate a similar content that I
am trying to evoke. Her selective cropping includes only her
head and sometimes shoulders, which fill the canvas with her
presence to a monumental extent. By making my work sometimes
larger than life-size, I am creating images that can produce
a similar effect for a viewer. This selective cropping points
back to the process an artist goes through in choosing what to
reveal. Especially for the female self-portrait, this is an extremely
relevant area of discussion because she is revealing herself
visually while controlling the gaze, often defined as male by
Linda Nochlin and other historians. The female artist working
in self-portraiture or in portraits of other women is working
up hill against centuries of representation of the female form
and persona by predominately male artists ( Nochlin).
I believe that I crop my pictures for similar reasons subconsciously
especially since I was previously making self-portraits of my
entire figure with minimal clothing, and then came back to the
head and shoulders. I felt more comfortable with this selective
cropping because I did not have to present myself as a woman
or as a female figure in art, historically read in a sexual way.
A much longer discussion could go on about why the female body
acts as a sexual object. I will leave this out because it has
not been a primary issue through the development of my self-portraits.
Coffey's work is also inspiring because the artist succeeds so
profoundly in forcing the viewer to see her as she sees herself
(Kraus, Art in America). She plays with costume, specifically
hats and glasses to present herself as anything from playful
to fearful. She controls her appearance, the framework, the setting,
and the outcome. Her tight execution of portraying herself is
impressive. Even though her gaze does not alter much, she usually
looks out at the viewer, who can read distinct emotions from
different works. In this way, she captures the state of mind
or inner portrait rather than just her likeness. This is exactly
the goal that I am struggling to achieve and one that will probably
take a lifetime to attain.
Another contemporary painter that I admire deeply is Tina Newberry.
Her recent body of work titled Bonnie Lasses contains many small-scale
self-portraits in which she appears in various poses and characters.
Some qualities that are contained in her work are lacking in
my own, however I see myself working toward the direction she
has set in my mind. The title of the body of work, based in her
Scottish lineage, is in a way a joke but simultaneously one reads
a deep longing for a connection with her heritage because of
the beauty with which she executes the paintings (Newberry et
al.). In her self-portrait, Agnes Irwin, she paints herself in
traditional head and shoulders format with a plaid sash draped
across her chest. Her gaze is not light but rather contemplative
and drawn back as though she is awkwardly questioning you looking
at her. Despite this, there is an air of assertion, with her
glasses on and hair drawn back, that comes through. She is making
a stark statement about who she is or how she sees herself at
that moment. In addition, her style of painting is so beautiful
and refined capturing highlights and shadows, which heighten
the reading of the gaze by forcing a viewer to see the formal
and emotional elements juxtaposed so eloquently.
In my recent piece Self-Portrait: Flower, I have similar formal
elements at work that Newberry executes with such skill. Although
my portrait is in black and white whereas hers is in color, I
have adopted a similar attitude to her in presenting this image
of myself. I am in head and shoulders format with my left hand
placed over my left eye, my hair drawn back, and a flower in
the right hand corner. What I find strong is that even though
my hand is blocking half of my face, the gaze is impenetrable
and assertive and demands recognition. I wish to evoke softness
through the line and mark of the pastel and charcoal, which play
against the sanded surface of the paper. The graininess that
emerges creates a softness and almost windblown quality that
comes through in the gesture of the mark. The strength of the
gaze coupled with the quietness of the mark complicates the reading
similar to Newberry.
Throughout my study of self-portraiture and working inside its
framework I have discovered more about fitting into a genre and
being driven to create work that both finds its roots and looks
toward a future. Through drawing myself, I feel that I have achieved
an understanding of the complexity of figuration by turning it
in on myself. I believe that I have a deeper association with
self-portraiture and the dialogue that it creates with other
artists as well as an audience. Reviewing my work as a body is
helpful in terms of seeing what I choose to portray of myself
consistently and what surprises surfaced. Important elements
include selective cropping, conveying inner-states or abstracts
of myself, and including actual or sensed barriers between the
viewer and me.
My intentions for future work include drawing others as well
as myself and I believe that my sensitivity to technical as well
as personal issues that arise when creating a portrait will benefit
future work. I will continue my decisions to control what the
viewer sees and to create portraits of inner states of being.
Discoveries made through observing other women artists currently
working in this area will ignite other elements to bring into
my work as well.
Works Cited
Bradley, Fiona, Victor Willing, Ruth Rosengarten,
and Judith Collins. Paula Rego. NY:
Thames and Hudson Tate Gallery Publishing, 1997.
Edwards, Cliff. Van Gogh and God: a creative
spiritual quest. Chicago: Loyola
University Press, 1989.
Erpel, Fritz. Van Gogh The Self-Portraits.
Greenwich, Connecticut: New York Graphic
Society LTD., 1963.
Fetch, Tom. Käthe Kollwitz: Works in
Color. NY: Schocken Books, 1988.
Fried, Michael. Courbet's Realism. Chicago
and London: The University of Chicago
Press, 1990.
Krauss, Nicole. "Susanna Coffey at Tibor
de Nagy." Art in America. September. 1999.
Newberry, Tina. Recent Paintings by Tina Newberry.
February. 2001
http://www.missioncreep.com/newberry/
Nochlin, Linda. Women Art and Power and Other
Essays. "Why there are No Great
Women Artists." Boulder: Westview Press, 1988.
White, Christopher, and Quentin Buvelot. Rembrandt
by Himself. London: National
Gallery Publications Limited, 1999.
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