I am trying to visually represent a sense of my personal spirituality.
This spirituality comes from my belief in the secret forces of
nature. Sometimes when I am in the woods I imagine that I can
hear the trees breathing. When the wind gentle rustles the leaves
I imagine the resulting sound are the trees talking to one another
or to me. When I lie down on the ground I can feel the earth breath
like someone's chest moving up and down and I can hear and feel
the earth's heart beat. I inhale the smell of the decaying leaves
and dirt like it is. I welcome humidity because I can actually
feel the air. This is the spirit of nature, the idea that the
earth and all things that grow upon it are alive and breathing
and seem to take on an anthropomorphic character. This is what
my art is about. The fairy is just a body to contain this spirit.
It is something to represent the abstract concept of spirituality
so in the fairy I am trying to represent the imaginary embodiment
of the spirit of nature.
I am inspired by the fantasy imagery and animism that developed
in Austria out of a cultural fear of death resulting from tears
of cultural, political, and religious unrest. I will discuss some
of the themes in Gustav Klimt's work as they are born out of this
Austrian legacy. I have also become interested in the spiritual
relationship between the painters of the Hudson River School and
the American landscape. I have also noted some nineteenth century
ideas about the negative effects of industrialism on the landscape
depicted in the American landscapes of George Innes and in Klimt's
landscapes. I have found inspiration in the work of Joyce Tenneson
as her work represents her own lifelong spiritual journey. Finally,
I would like to comment on my use of the Van Dyke Brown Process
in the creation of my final body of work.
Over the course of this semester I have been struggling to figure
out exactly what I am doing when I make the images I do. I feel
that through the process of this self-scrutiny and dissection
I have been able to move past my fear of death because I have
come closer to my ultimate beliefs about spirituality. As my work
has evolved from otherworldly, documentary to spiritual landscape
I have been able to allow myself to transcend the documentary
world of reality and people and finally become part of a spiritual
world. My fear of death has subsided, as I have been able to let
go of this world of every day life and familiarity, and face the
unknown.
My work has undergone great metamorphosis, and consequently so
has my conception of human existence. Before my work was grounded
in death as the ultimate end, in both my fear of death and my
attachment to life. Now my work is built on the metamorphosis
of human existence of which death is just one stage, and the cyclic
nature of all existence. It is for this reason that I have chosen
to include the fairy in my work. I chose the fairy to represent
the spirit of nature because to me fairies represent more than
just their superficial popular notions. I see the body of the
fairy to be a human in a hybrid form. My fairies wings resemble
the wings of an insect, such as those of a fly, in that they are
transparent. She represents a metamorphosis in this characteristic,
in the sense of the metamorphosis that insects undergo throughout
the various stages of their lifespan. I am referring to the literal
transformation from the egg to the larva, to the pupa, and finally
the adult fly. I am not however saying that the fairy goes through
the same process I am just referencing the process of transformation
from one state to another. The biological definition of metamorphosis
is a profound change in form from one stage to the next in the
life history of an organism. The fairy being the embodiment of
nature also represents the cyclical transformation of nature in
the changing of the seasons.
I have found a relationship with the art that was produced in
Vienna throughout the nineteenth century in their fantastic imagery.
A theme in the development of Austrian fantasy is the fear of
death instilled in the city as everywhere there are constant reminders
of the city's plight from the memory of the religious invasions
and massacre as they were the eastern most capitol of Christianity
for a time to the plague monument in the heart of down town Vienna.
From this fear of death and the need to escape it encouraged flight
from reality. It was my own fear of death that kept me attached
to making art about the things of life and reality, but eventually
I looked for an escape and decided to create a fantastic world
which soon became instilled with spirituality. I was able to make
my own connection between my bond with nature and an image from
traditional fantasy, the fairy. At first the fairy was simply
a character in my fantastic world but then she came to represent
so much more, she became the embodiment of nature, and my work
became more about my connection to the transcendental spirit of
nature than of my previous works in fear of death, or those that
were escape from death through fantasy.
In my images I am trying to show the spirit of nature in the embodiment
of it rather than in the Grandiose awe of depictions of landscapes
such as those of the Hudson River painters. The paintings of Thomas
Cole especially emulate this emotional stimulation from the grandeur
of the untouched American landscape. In his painting , Catskill
Mountain House , Cole depicts a large mountain rising up from
the Hudson river, followed by more mountains gently disappearing
into the distance. In the foreground Cole includes two hikers
to demonstrate the small scale of human beings compared to the
grand scale of the landscape, which is divinely created. From
his Essay on American Scenery, Cole says, "those scenes of
solitude from which the hand of nature has never been lifted,
affect the mind with a more deep toned emotion than aught which
the hand of man has touched. Amid them the consequent associations
are of God the creator-they are his undefiled works, and the mind
is cast into the contemplation of eternal things." Here Cole
is discussing his feelings on how the beauty of untouched nature
is more emotionally striking than anything that could be created
by man, and this distinction represents the power of the divine
creator over man, and emphasizes Cole's point that it is this
divine beauty that causes the mind to contemplate eternal things,
perhaps such as life, death, and existence.
Because I feel such a strong connection to nature I feel that
the destruction of it is in a way the destruction of myself. I
feel, so strongly, that I am a part of nature, that I will not
be able to exist in a completely man made environment. I sympathize
with some nineteenth century artists who were effected by the
encroaching industrialism and included these sentiments in their
art work.
George Inness and his painting The Lackawanna Valley (1856) depicts
the image of a sweeping landscape with a steam engine cutting
across mid-ground and behind it lie a scattering of buildings
all emitting some sort of smoke. It seems as though there is smoke
emanating from the forest covering the mountains in the background.
All of this smoke rises into the air giving it a hazy atmosphere
and a dirty green hue. In addition the hillside in the foreground
is covered with tree stumps. This image has been interpreted as
celebrating the power of man over nature, and was in fact commissioned
by the railroad companies in Scranton, Pennsylvania. However,
the depiction of the sky, clearly is commenting on how industrialism
is destroying the beautiful American landscape. This Painting
is representative of a crucial dilemma that confronted many people
in the nineteenth century, especially in America, that of expansion
necessitating the destruction of nature.
Another artist that I feel a connection with is Gustav Klimt,
particularly in his early landscapes but I am also drawn to his
commitment to the metamorphic cycle of life. In his painting the
Three Ages of Woman, "the contrast between the stylized girl
and the naturalistic old woman has a symbolic value the first
phase of life is characterized by an infinite number of possibilities
and metamorphoses, while the last phase is marked by an unchangeable
uniformity that does not allow one to escape confrontation with
reality". Klimt sees life filled with different stages that
people morph from one to the other but this stops at the onset
of old age when we are brought back to the reality of life in
the face of death. I have come to see death as another stage in
the metamorphic cycle of life, like the seasons there is the birth
of spring, the youth of summer, the old age of autumn and the
death of winter.
Kilmt's landscape paintings are connected to his ideas about human
life through two concepts, that organic life exists outside and
independent of man-made history, and the idea of natural history
as a cyclical process of never ending growth. Klimt's lack of
human presence in his landscapes is evidence that when "confronted
with the increasing exploitation of nature and the feeling that
it is under mounting threat, we tend to feel a growing yearning
for a 'pure' unadulterated nature, forever renewing itself, as
it were, from its own resources". His landscapes were influenced
by the impending destruction of industrialism, and he chose to
counteract this destruction by creating completely organic depictions
of the landscape that are in the process of endless renewal. I
have attempted to create a scene saturated with nature and free
from any traces of human presence. Because such a natural view
free from houses and roads to cars or even humans is uncommon
in the everyday lives of most people I feel that this absence
will be noticed and will reflect my feelings about the destruction
of nature.
I am inspired by the work of Joyce Tenneson and it's reflection
of her own spiritual journey, as my work is a result of the progression
of a spiritual journey of my own. I also relate to her interest
in the metamorphosis of the human body, and her ability to depict
timeless figures by way of their nudity and also in their reference
to an anonymous myth. I am particularly drawn to her use of light
to represent spirituality for example in the image Woman and Light
Hat. She creates an aura of light around a hat in the shape of
a nun's hat, which creates the effect of light actually emanating
from the hat or from the head of the woman. She is using this
light to instill a kind of spirituality into the image and perhaps
into the woman herself.
In my image of the four fairies over the pond I have tried to
create a similar effect by placing the fairies within their own
halo of lightness as if they might glow. I want them to emanate
the spiritual light as to heighten their purpose as embodying
the spirit of nature incarnate. They are like little points of
light within the landscape, or magical sparks of radiant energy.
Tenneson's image alludes to a divine presence in her use of Christian
imagery, an influence of her childhood growing up surrounded by
the mysterious world of convent life. I am less interested in
the imagery of traditional Christianity and more interested in
instilling a sense of animism, the belief that natural phenomena
or inanimate objects possess spirits into my images.
To make my images I have chosen to print them using an alternative
photographic process called Van Dyke Brown for two reasons. The
first reason is because I am bored with the traditional method
using regular photographic paper, printed in the dark room from
the original negative. The Vandyke brown process is interesting
and exciting because of the variations of possible steps involved
to make the final image. I began by shooting black and white images
of a figure dressed like a fairy, in the woods and then printed
the picture traditionally in the dark room before inputting it
into the computer. Recently I began creating images by shooting
with a digital camera and also shooting the landscape and figures
separately in order to construct the scene in the computer. Both
processes result in the printing of an enlarged negative printed
on a transparency from the computer printer. I have found the
digital method to be more practical. The next reason why I am
using this alternative process is because I am interested in the
dialogue that is created between my entirely digitally constructed
imagery and the seemingly historical appearance of the final object.
In her article discussing some of the contemporary artists who
are working with historical photographic processes, Aura Fixation:
Old Technology for New Photography, Jane Harris notes, "Artists
working with forms that hark back to photography's origins do
so because it allows them an intimacy with the medium that is
lost in the world of digital [media]". She says, "people
are attracted to what appears sincere, stable, and familiar in
the face of change." I want to instill a sense of photographic
truth to my photographs by referencing the origins of photography
through the final outcome of the Van Dyke brown process. The historical
method would be to use a large format camera and paper negatives.
I am modifying the process to the conveniences of our time but
I am still trying to reference the original nature of the process.
I am not using the Vandyke brown method in an attempt to make
fake fairy photographs reminiscent of the Cottingly Fairies faked
by two young girls in England in the nineteenth century. I am
not trying to prove the existence of fairies by representing them
photographically. I do not truly believe that fairies exist in
real life. They are imaginary beings. They are like the caricature
of the spirit of nature. My pictures are not about fairies, they
are about my personal spiritual bond with nature.